.the rabbits twitchin their sleep;they dreamof red bitten neckswet with spit,the birds dream of their eggscrackedand runny -the mice dream of hearingthat tabby cat screamas the teeth of life ripitwide open
.love like thunder;make yourself known
.sometimes faith slowlyprises open our ribsdecides to slip outquietlyand unseen
.i said death,death is a closet;let's all just hangourselves up and keepthe place tidy -
.i think you know of hair wound tight round a hand like ropeof thoughts that sail in and let down anchorin the night, sleep drifting away on the black tide,i think you know of god up in the crow's nest, keeping watchhis eyes have rolled at us so much they rattle, loose nowin their pits like marbles, they say he knowsi have examined the slides of my childhood, uprooted my body,yanked myself out of my years with my own gloved handlike a weed and stared in disgust, it's only naturalthat you should still want to sleep with one arm overyour head, she said, don't you think?i think the sun lit upthe world's scarsand felt bad, hung its headthrough the horizonand cried in shamenow i don't think it's evergoing to stop raining(i am holding up my mind, i am shoving it in your face)
.you break freefrom the grip ofthe oceanjust to die inthe arms of the shorefrom exhaustion
.in the beginningin the bonewhite tendrilsof holy fire, the nightate away at it all,that acid tide -it ate away atthe bud in the mudand the blood,it burned their bodiesbut left their ghostsso they could beidentified -and then a wildman, a monsterpressed his thumb intothe air, he drewa cross upon his facesaid lightand nowi am drowningi am drowning in lighti am drowningin the whiteand the goldas he sitsat the end of my bedand he shouts -for somethingor someonei don't knowand i scream, god, please justlet me sleep!let me sleepin the cold barren groundof the earth,let it pull me right inthrough its mangle -and i feel a stingin the crook of my armwhen they come(and then even the wolves, even the wolves start to whimper)
.i wokeon theedgeof nothing,one armdanglingover theledge(numb from the wrists down)
.the world's a stagebut he saysplease,don't make a scene(it's growing boring)
.your heart is a houseand i am screaming atthe front door
.dig lifejust to get buried
.know this; i loved the fireand i walked into it willingly, heavenis not up above but deeper down below(there is a snake with the world in its belly, eat it; you are a killer the same)
.i feel in a languagei don't understand,and the wings of the bird in my kitchen, theywon't get to feel the sky anymore -and sometimes doesn't it feel good?to put two fingers round the neckof a flower andsnap,hear the petals scream fortheir withering limbs,then start choking(instinct)
.in the bodyof a dead womani am aliveand kicking
.i keep wearingmy skinlike an old wornjacket and jeans,stitchedover andover again
.the moon shudders;silver dust landsin my hair and i sigh,knock it off -what's your problem?i'm frustrated -i've been trying tostrike a match that won'tlight for two hours,she saysyou carry a lighter,remember?
.and i have seen deer necks, limptheir bodies cold as death,hooves made of glass, hooves shattered,arrows piercing hind legsrunning sweat and crimson, i have walkeda path of deadwood, paths of black treesmoss and bark, i have felt their spines beneathmy feet, felt suicides of leavesunfolding, still asleep -i have seen eleven chestnut horsesflailing in the sea, frothing at the mouthand drowning, found themselvestoo deepand tired -goddess leant over my bed and she saidi know you, i know you from somewheredon't i? you've still got those paper lanterns driftingin the black skies of your eyes, you lay and praymy girl, you lay and pray -the hinges of the moon, they rust,don't open up to you, cos something darkit grows inside, will gnaw its way rightthroughyour silver skin -and now i sit arms out and upturned,braid the light with my split lip, and no i do notwant to talk about the overbite, the mark, i knowi smell of sterile -he said look at all these inse
.i remember the springwhen you did not growand our arms unfurledfor no one
DifferenceTo be lonely is painful,To be alone is liberating.
the dead and the dyingthe funny thing abouthumans is thatwe think we areinvincible and immortalgods.no—we're allroadkill,living ina tainted worldwhere cars drivetoo damn fast.and me,well,i just try toget by withoutbeing hitmore than once.
Sanctuary?Shadows Can't Follow You In The Dark.
-she knew he was a grave, but she buried herself in him anyway.
IntrovertEveryone's tryingto get out ofthe shadowof their parents-I'm here tryingto get out ofthe shadowof myself.
You only fly for a little whileShe was just four years oldkicking her feetharder and harder,as the swingset creakedand crackedShe finally reached the peak,jumped off,and said,"Mama, I'm gonna fly."and so she did;three feet into the air,sticking the landinglike a gymnastAnd I wonder everydayif those were the same wordsshe mutteredbefore jumping off that bridge,unable to remember,you only fly for a little while.
.you buried me deep and called it a triumph,but you never realized -I'm a seed.
The Girl Who Was Afraid To BeShe speaks to me fondlyof passions and talents,of guitars and stars,with such breathless intensitythen stops short andapologisesfor speaking at all.All because somewhere in her life,someone she loved broke her heartby ignoringher beautiful wordsand telling her toshut up,keep it down,nobody cares.People aren’t born sad.We make them that way.
It's Okay to be ImperfectThe moonhas craterstoo,and lookhow brightit shines,even inthe darkestof times.
.what doesn't kill youcomes back with something strongerto finish the job