.some thoughts get so loud thatyou cry out for them to leave;they scatter like birds startledout of their trees, before landingagain where they wereand after a while,you just have tolet them sing
.your heartalone shouldremind younot to beatyourself upyour pulseshould remindyoukeep steady
.you pulledall the strings;now i connect morewith the puppet thani do the puppeteer
.i shudderwhen you speak;your words arecold when theytouch me
.some people are deadlong before they die -there's just no burialor cremation,no funeralfor the spirit
.everything i hold deari hold too tightly;i am so sorry you weremarked when i had tolet you go
.you were a passingstorm, a tornado scribblingyour name in the sand
.and if you evermanage to get inside myhead, i'll wish you luck
.you're afraidto let anyonestoke the firein your chestfor fearyou will burnthem alive
.does a weedever wonderwhy it isn'ta flowerdoes a treeever feel likeits roots areholding itdown
.and like a stone atthe bottom of the riveror the sea,i think life might just beflowing right past me
.you are a walkingcoffin; there are sentencesburied alive inside you, all thethings you could not sayand they will fester therelike maggots, eat you fromthe inside out
.you were life's newwork of art;small easel bonesand a blankcanvas of skinbut he ruined you over time,added the brushof a scaror two
.there are some things i've seen and heard that reallyget to me sometimes, like those birds and mice with teeth markson their little red raw thighs,rotting flowers, i recall he said this is a waste of timeand you're a waste of space, it's just impossible to holda conversation with you these days,let it go, just fucking drop it,keep your mouth shut unless i sayi think i froze to death last night, my fingertips turned blue,i heard a cloud say fuck you boy, did i come all this way for youto say that i look like a rabbit,better places i could bei've seen my shadow put two fingers to her headand pull the trigger, heard my echo laughabout it with the walls, and every timei hold a match i hear itwhispering to me,if you don't want me to burn you,then you're gonna have to blow meouti heard that you can't tame a lion just by pullingat his mane, i heard that blood feels goodon porcelain and not just i
.you’ve gota lioninside,a heartfull ofpride,and you’renot lettinghim roar
.love grewand died repeatedly;she tore it out atthe root
.he stood on the shore,and told the sea he loved her;the jealous wind tore hisvoice in two
.pour love allover, then strikea match;the fire willburn itself out,but the ruinswill smoulder
desolateyou are a broken house with smashed windowsand ivy growing between your fingersyou are fragile and with everycreaking footstep on the stairs you pray so hard that you have let the right one inthere will be people,people with minds so blissfully ignorant thatthey walk right through you and do not see the splintered furniture residing within yourbody, you are invisible to them,and sometimesyou wonder if you are even therebut then there are other people - people worth staying standing for,people who will walk in and gently run their fingers along the parts of yourself thatyou forgot were even there,people who will explore your anatomy likeit is an undiscovered world. let them find the stale cup of water you leftbeneath your bed 5 months ago,let them find the brittle treasures you hidein your fireplace, and how you masochisticallyadore the way that you could justcatch on fire at anysecondbut do not let them break you,not ever again.
Keep your secrets, wolfgirl.I have been suffocatingon the stars of my pastlike horny gentlemendo with innocent lookingwolfgirls at 3am- their bitefearless as thieves.My lilac lungs are breathing indust and the tears of Saturn’snameless moons,while the rest of me -well, shes warm off wineand poems leftunfinished.
Heart Sold.i stand before youmy heart druggedpride swallowedas all i wantis your everinfectioussmile.
Cancer has a smell.Old classics,lilac air-fresheners,the half cup ofpeppermint ice creamthat’s beensitting in your freezerfor weeks, and cat litter.He won’t eat anymore,but there arepiles and pilesof dirty dishessitting in the sink.He’s slowlydisintegratingbefore your eyes.You can wrapyour whole selfaround his tiny bonesnow.You can hold himlike he used to hold youall those years ago.And you are angry.You try to findsomeone,or somethingto blame.You hate doctors,and you hateNovember now.November meansbirthdays, diagnoses,chemo treatments,and realization.You have to force yourselfto stop crying,every day.This is the one personwho’s always had faithin you.He’s read every poemand hoarded every awardyou ever won.You ignore statistics,because rosesthey alwayssmell nicer.
Ghost ShipYou still ghost shipThroughMy Subconscious.I've been waitingFor youTo drop anchor.
Small TalkIt's dripping with logic and reasonthe question you let gently droponto the table between us,“So, tell me about your life.”And I'm watching it carefullytelling myself it won't biteit's more scared of me than I amand I can capture it with glass.And I can't rest the answer therebecause it's bigger and scarierand this one will bite will sinkwill tear apart the careful stitches.It's too big for this tableand I can't put it onto youso it weighs heavy on my neckand the silence stretches further.
to the girl with hungry footstepsI'm sending all my words backto the people who need them--people who wear scars likewar trophies, like jewelry, likean identification for those sufferingfrom the same acceptance ofself-hate. this is to the peoplewho sleep with one eye open, whocry when footsteps enter their roomat night; this is to the girlswho love by cutting their heartsinto snowflakes and watchingthem melt. I left you behind andI can't be sorry for that.you are the type of beautifulthat kindly asks the worldto fuck off. the days we buriedhave decomposed, headstones aresnapshots; sanitized breakdowns,rusty tongues, sighs lacedwith fear, I love you, I loveyou. saturdays were the bestbecause we could sleep throughthe nightmare. you painted me apicture of the world with your wordsand they made us wash it awayfor being transparent.we were afraid of nothingbut the monsters in our eyelids.back then, we counted dayslike shooting stars; it took 67to wish myself away. thisis for you, skygazer;
She Was With the StarsThe amber girlwas preserved perfectlyand her silky hair and porcelain skingleamed like a doll'sBut the scientists weren't able to keepher soul burningbecause though she was in theglass case filled with chemicals and fluidsand they were desperately trying to pumpoxygen into her lungs,her mind was still up in spacewith the starsSo the sun was extinguisheddespite the cries and mournful screamsbecause they hadbroke herand the many who looked upat her light and gloryslowly began to rot awayAnd so not a single thing was solved
I can't write poetry for dead girls.there are toomany pills in thisworld and toomuch misery inthe human heartbut that didn't meanthat you could justup and leave whenwe both know itcould have gotten betterand i miss you likea wolf misses her packor a goddamn dragon missesher fire and i'm sorrythat i can't give youa bouquet of jasmines(they were yourfavorite, after all,because that wasthe only princesswith a pet tiger)because poppies aretoo cliche and i'msorry i wasn't therewhen all you neededwas a hug and for someoneto whisper "it's okay,you're perfect enoughfor me, don't listento that junkie bitchwho just happened togive birth to you" and didyou know that i'm still waitingfor a reply to that oneemail about the world'sbest puns because fuck,there's a stubborn partof me that still refuses tobelieve that you're gone.
.just try not tothink ofthat memory, that onewolf that callsfor the restof the pack;you'll spend allnight howlingwith them insideyour head