.i dug up thepast again, thosememories viciousand snarlingi set them looseinside the houseand now we haveto leave
.i wanted to bathein fire; for the amber tonguesto lick me clean, pure
.love grewand died repeatedly;she tore it out atthe root
.is it worse tohear a truth,or give oneto tell a lie,or live one
.you are a walkingcoffin; there are sentencesburied alive inside you, all thethings you could not sayand they will fester therelike maggots, eat you fromthe inside out
.a storm breaks insidehis mouth; my name washes upon his tongue, stranded
.i shudderwhen you speak;your words arecold when theytouch me
.you brokea heart,convincedthat there wassomething goodinside
.we are one and thesame, that old willow andme, we stand tall with thescars that life gave us -with the names of loverscarved deep in our limbs,and old burns from mydads cigarettes
.my thoughts want toflee, but there is no fireescape, no guide to theexit of my head, and theyconsider digging a holethere, i feel it, maybe acrack just wide enoughto crawl through, drop arope through the backof my neck and climbdown, prise open theearth - a tremble turnsinto an avalanche, anda snowflake in the flurrywonders am i the same asall the rest? he coughs andsplutters and chokes onit - i wake in the earlymorning, heart lodgedin my throat, that redbird in that chimney, he'sgoing to starve there andi'll be spitting feathers;i won't claw the insideof my neck again fornobody, i'm past that,pick me up by thescruff and drop mewherever you're going -but wait, when lightningstrikes a tree, well isn'tthat love? and when therain pelts the ground,well what about then?when you miss the acheof wounds as they'rehealing, is that it? wellwhen your nose bleeds,that's still love right?cos i've got an entirepack to get through -and what a funnything it is
.you're afraidto let anyonestoke the firein your chestfor fearyou will burnthem alive
.the breathin my lungs -you tookeverything
.in yourhead liesa well troddenpath;i want thewilderness
.the shadows bruise thesunlight while the moonweeps in the darkness
.some thoughts get so loud thatyou cry out for them to leave;they scatter like birds startledout of their trees, before landingagain where they wereand after a while,you just have tolet them sing
.does a weedever wonderwhy it isn'ta flowerdoes a treeever feel likeits roots areholding itdown
.everything i hold deari hold too tightly;i am so sorry you weremarked when i had tolet you go
.your heartalone shouldremind younot to beatyourself upyour pulseshould remindyoukeep steady
Keep your secrets, wolfgirl.I have been suffocatingon the stars of my pastlike horny gentlemendo with innocent lookingwolfgirls at 3am- their bitefearless as thieves.My lilac lungs are breathing indust and the tears of Saturn’snameless moons,while the rest of me -well, shes warm off wineand poems leftunfinished.
You asked for dark poetry.i will neverbe niceto my enemies.i will devour them all.slowly.methodically.with a fork.
hyenas make the best lovers.i need to stop lookingfor death in every bodymy fingers touch.i have been force fedold lovers, & slicesof the moons lying dustfor years-i am messy poems;i am fractured confessions.i am laughter& teeth.my jaws achewith the taste ofwolves blood,& names.i am still hungry.give me your sugar;I will share my breath.remember,you are still made of starstuff,& i am no longer caged.
painyou're disgusting.i hope you know that every time you show your face,i cringe, collapse into rage.you flay my body with cutting board scissorsand laugh at the sight of my blood.it's everywhere, staining everything.my clothes are ruined,splotched with your dirty curse.i can't ignore youwhen you're so persistent,grinding me like coffee beansto grit beneath your boots.i'm a shipwreck. you're the bottom of the ocean,suffocating everything.i collapse into bathroom stallslike a rag doll,falling on my knees and begging for mercy.you're the reason i have medication.i swallow pill after pill,but they don't let me forget you.i feel you within me,twisting, pulling at my guts.there's some idea out therethat women are like snow-capped strawberries,but you are the part of methat releases the bitter, razor-edged leaves.you cut.my mom tells me i'm being melodramatic.it's just a period, after all.
I'm the type...to try and smile when they're gunning me down andI won't tell you until I'm full of empty shells thatthe world wasn't built on land but onsuffering anda lack of better term for human desire for satisfaction that does not exist.To be optimistic when one's soul is a realist butit doesn't matter how many petals you count becausethe last draw will always end with a dead end thattakes you to a new beginning where at first you feel.. this is it. And I'm going to make this myhome.. If not for the eyes that prey on your identity while perched ontrees that take root on ground made of greed andsuffering.Is happiness a paradoxical conspiracy that finds salvation in the dreaming minds of those awake. Or perhaps justsomething I have only caressed but never tasted toremember.Is suffering that which is beyond the first dream that we all awaken to after sleeping that first sleep when we break free of Innocence.Or are my words not but images that you have unconsciously
lung canceri will die with your name on my lipsbecause there is nothing else i'll need to say.you are my coffin, my funeral pyre.as my bones disintegrate, popping and snapping,you will greedily swallow my ashesuntil nothing is left of me but secondhand smoke.i've danced with you, love, across hospital tile,the scent of antiseptic cloying as valentine's chocolate.you dipped me into unconsciousness,and i willingly closed my eyes.the intrusion of your scalpel teeth no longer scares me.you, my rigor mortis soul mate, always take me under.your tent of frostbitten shelter pulls me down, an anchor,while i gag on pills too abstract to save me.forgive me, lungs, of my cigarette abuse,but i've found happiness in a reaper's cloak.i find comfort in these carcinogens.i've made my nest in a swaying tree,my body destroyed by the nauseous rocking.they smile at me with pity in their eyes,scribbling nonsense on those jaw-like clipboards.their crisp, stark white world still has faith in me,yet
Wave goodbyeThe stars haven't faded;they aren’t yet dead.They’ll continue to burnand will never dieuntil you tear themfrom the sky.
My DiseaseMy fingers bleed wordsthat my lips cannot say.When they try to trickle out,I scowl and turn away.It may not be contagious,but it is a disease.Holding myself deep inside,it's getting hard to breathe.Lies come so easy,to cover up the truth.It’s like my second nature,grown from my very youth.It’s deeper than conviction,more earnest than a thought.It’s my wayIt’s my lifeIt is my disease.
The Dead SeaThe Dead SeaI offered water to her,but she was a seaI offered love to her,but she was deadI offered words to herand she hated me.
.pour love allover, then strikea match;the fire willburn itself out,but the ruinswill smoulder