.is it worse tohear a truth,or give oneto tell a lie,or live one
.throw my boneson the fire justto warm up yourownthen sitthere and wonderwhy you're alwaysalone
.pour love allover, then strikea match;the fire willburn itself out,but the ruinswill smoulder
.i dug up thepast again, thosememories viciousand snarlingi set them looseinside the houseand now we haveto leave
.we are one and thesame, that old willow andme, we stand tall with thescars that life gave us -with the names of loverscarved deep in our limbs,and old burns from mydads cigarettes
.does a weedever wonderwhy it isn'ta flowerdoes a treeever feel likeits roots areholding itdown
.the shadows bruise thesunlight while the moonweeps in the darkness
.dead flies scatterthe windowsill, theirbodies shrivelled anddried by the suni mourn the spider,hung with his own web
.you brokea heart,convincedthat there wassomething goodinside
.some thoughts get so loud thatyou cry out for them to leave;they scatter like birds startledout of their trees, before landingagain where they wereand after a while,you just have tolet them sing
.i shudderwhen you speak;your words arecold when theytouch me
.i wanted to bathein fire; for the amber tonguesto lick me clean, pure
.the sea spitsme back ontothe shore -the waves saythis is not theright tide, theright time
.i offered salt to thesea, heat to the sun, andlove to the moon; theytold me, this isn't enoughi offered my soul tothe devil; he said yes,this will be just fine
.and if you evermanage to get inside myhead, i'll wish you luck
.sometimesthe voicein my headdecides tocurl up inmy throatinsteadand sometimesthe beat ofyour heartdecides tomake itselfknown throughyour fists
.you say youlie because youcare, and ibelieve you;i know you'duse the truthif you reallywanted tohurt me
.when i look back atthe past, she looks right back at meshe points at thefuture, glint in her eye
hometown bluesthey say home is where the heart is,but they never claimed it had to be beating.if this town is all there is to living,then I'm dead,and these dusty dirt roadsare my sad little gravestones.there's a harsh winter wind.I'm breathing,but it's the same air I've inhaledsince I first opened mysurgical steel eye to the world.remember the pale pink dressI wore to our senior prom?you held meunder the fuzzy yellow confetti light.I loved you because you were so gentle,and when I fell apart,you were the only person who knewI could fix myself on my own.you twirled me like I mattered,because you knew that one day I would die.you forgot that you would, too.you are wrought iron starlight,my crooked grey dove.you live in the sidewalk cracks,moaning my name as Icautiously step over the gorges.my mother calls, from time to time.I've learned to let the phone ringbecause her voice is not the one I want to hear.she's too tepid, unsure.she's the link strangling me,pinning me t
Keep your secrets, wolfgirl.I have been suffocatingon the stars of my pastlike horny gentlemendo with innocent lookingwolfgirls at 3am- their bitefearless as thieves.My lilac lungs are breathing indust and the tears of Saturn’snameless moons,while the rest of me -well, shes warm off wineand poems leftunfinished.
hyenas make the best lovers.i need to stop lookingfor death in every bodymy fingers touch.i have been force fedold lovers, & slicesof the moons lying dustfor years-i am messy poems;i am fractured confessions.i am laughter& teeth.my jaws achewith the taste ofwolves blood,& names.i am still hungry.give me your sugar;I will share my breath.remember,you are still made of starstuff,& i am no longer caged.
Evanescentonly the mostbeautiful of creatureslive the shortest.red roses and quiveringbutterflies and otheruseless things, like theway she wishes on every starshe sees for a differentsoul because she can't standthe way it's rotting inside.and it's only whenthe thorns beneath her skinstart to bleed that hermonsters whisper, "haveyou ever trembled, my dear?"because they knowfor every whimper that hidesfaintly in the dark,there is a pair of lips stretchedinto a smile pretendingthat all that is beautifulis timeless and unbroken.
I can't write poetry for dead girls.there are toomany pills in thisworld and toomuch misery inthe human heartbut that didn't meanthat you could justup and leave whenwe both know itcould have gotten betterand i miss you likea wolf misses her packor a goddamn dragon missesher fire and i'm sorrythat i can't give youa bouquet of jasmines(they were yourfavorite, after all,because that wasthe only princesswith a pet tiger)because poppies aretoo cliche and i'msorry i wasn't therewhen all you neededwas a hug and for someoneto whisper "it's okay,you're perfect enoughfor me, don't listento that junkie bitchwho just happened togive birth to you" and didyou know that i'm still waitingfor a reply to that oneemail about the world'sbest puns because fuck,there's a stubborn partof me that still refuses tobelieve that you're gone.
i gave up on trying to write about youthere are millions of poemsdetailing the beauty of another’s eyes,but your eyes, my love,put all their cherry-picked words to shame.ew, that verse is disgusting.way too sappy.I’m no good at love poems.okay, hold on, let mejust start over.you’re freaking excellentno.shall I compare thee to a summer’s day?thou art more lovely and more temperatewait.i can’t take credit for that.sonnets aren’t my style,and anyway,shakespeare beat me to the punchfour hundred some years ago.uh, i mean, you’re funnyand really cute, likei seriously love your eyesbecause there’s meaning in theresomewhere.and, and, you make me laugh.you’re so hilarious.and I have the drawing you gave metwo years ago, still hiddenfolded up in my notebook.plus, i mean, you’re everything to me.no big deal, right,considering the fact that we neverreally speak anymore.it’s cool.i’m fine.really.oh my god that doesn’teven
Before I Can Become a WriterDevelop insomnia. Developproblems with substance abuse,nothing serious, but enoughthat I can say “write drunk,edit sober” and mean it.Drink tea. Write about drinkingtea. Take up smoking, ignorethe thoughts about it beinga slower suicide. Write aboutsuicide. Don’t mean it.Write about sunsets andink veins. Mean it.Fall in love with someonewho will never love me back.Lament. Write a millioncrappy poems and two goodones. Never show him.Move on. Write a few morebad poems. Fall in love withsomeone perfect. Screw it up.Fall in love with someone awful.Call him perfect. Screw it up.Cry. Cry for the inevitable,the way my family neverloved me right, the way myfirst kiss was regrettableat best, the way my therapistsays my depression is a demontaking over me. Cry for thechangeable, the wayI hate my body and my writingand everything I live to be.Use clichés. Live clichés,breathe clichés, bea cliché. Write a poemabout ho
You asked for dark poetry.i will neverbe niceto my enemies.i will devour them all.slowly.methodically.with a fork.
reasons why we should be in loveif I couldI’d love you likethose couples who growinto each other and makepoetry out of body languageand wear one another’sweaknesses when they gettoo heavy and talk aboutthe weather without ever reallymeaning the weather at all;and you’d keep me fromfalling asleep in the oceanand I’d lie about littlethings, always confusingSunday for Tuesday andyou for somebody withthe same face whowas always afraid ofme. you’d chuckle andhold me and I’d cave in toyou like the hungry tideand you’d say I lookedbeautiful when I criedand I wouldn’t believe youbut I’d cry more anyways.if people were alive,you’d be the brightestone. I don’t have muchto offer but I could write youa million dedicationsin the sand, and give youpocket change when youneeded a wish; I couldtake you to New Zealandto paint water lilies or Englandto go skydiving or Italyto fall in love and mean itand I would promise youthe moon an
.you are a walkingcoffin; there are sentencesburied alive inside you, all thethings you could not sayand they will fester therelike maggots, eat you fromthe inside out